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hmm when i am alone i tend to reflect a lot and it usually goes two ways... either a depressed lonely feeling OR a happy having joy-in-the-Lord feeling... i really should get rid of the first one >_< often i easily fall into the trap of thinking that things aren't going well and that nobody cares or whatever >_< but it's so baaad because God, YOU ARE ENOUGH!! but right now i am having one of those good moments :) when i can count my blessings and see that i truly am very very blessed. I have friends that will encourage me not just with words like "you can do it!" or "just work harder!" but with spiritual encouragement and reminders that the focus is always to do all things for Him and not for our own desires, wants and needs. I guess sometimes it's difficult to say these things and sometimes it even feels taboo... but i'm beginning to become more open in my spiritual encouragement as well and i'm so happy i have such good people around me that help me grow and get through university. God, You are sooo good ^^

anyways i haven't been blogging much >_< but update = work has been tough and it's kind of derailed my whole keener streak and my devo time :( SO I MUST GET BACK ON TRACK!

reminders

well i haven't been blogging too often recently but undoubtedly so many things are happening daily and although some things are tougher than others but i'm trying to see everything I'm going through as opportunities through which God can build me up. gotta let him guide me and i need to let go of the things that i want control over - because i never really can get control anyway. i think two Bible verses that have encouraged me and somewhat sum up what i've been experiencing:

"many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails" Proverbs 19:21

"therefore i am content with weaknesses, with insults, with troubles, with persecutions and difficulties for the sake of Christ, for whenever i am weak, then i am strong" 2 Corinthians 12:10

God is good and i'm learning! surely but slowly... i guess the past while there's a lot of tough times for many people, including myself and just facing insecurities or just loss of what to do but i'm so thankful for the people that God has placed in my life that encourage me spiritually to face things and we can just be honest and open and offer encouragement and it's just so good =) i'm truly blessed and God is so gooood! i guess everything is still pretty tough =\ but good thing HIS LOVE NEVER FAILS :D