them summer times

I guess I just had a lot of fun today haha and I guess having really great times makes you want to blog about it just as much as down/sad times. Anyways today i started off with WONDERLAND with daniel au and his friends from school which was really fun =) I got to know him better and some of his friends too which i thought was great =) as well as being able to go on rides and stuff ahah the only bad part was maybe the heat but it was endurable.
After that we had Malachi Grad and it was great to see Maureen again =) I MISSED HER lol and yah i guess it just recently hit me that they are not going to be at fellowship next year =( but I'll still see them =) Overall pretty awesome day which is .... good haha nice change from stressful school and issues haha
first softball game tomorrow..

2:21 in the morning

so it's is 2:22 am now and i don't want to sleep for some reason. i guess a lot of things are still going through my head in this time of mass confusion about everything... i've been giving a lot of thought to how i present myself to people around me and how i act. and i realize i act like... an idiot. Like i probably give off the vibe that i'm a really dumb simple and teasable person. I guess that's not all bad. the simple part sounds alright but other than that i guess i want to be a bit more dignified in the way people see me... i don't want ppl to just think i'm stupid but maybe respect and appreciate who i am... i don't know i want to be seen as a nice cheerful kind of person but recently it's been a little hard. It's hard to seem happy and stuff when you're around a group of people where you feel like you don't really belong and slightly left out.

i'm not really sure what to think anymore >____<

FREE

yay so i finally finished my exams todayyy so i'm pretty much FREE =D that makes me very happy haha. i have more time to blog now =P i'm also pretty sure i did not that good on a lot of my exams =P but whatever.. nothing i can do now! i've freed up some time so now i can go back to volunteering more consistently, i have time to practice and actually learn guitar, i have time to work on breaking! lol and just free time in general. this should probably also include sleep time... but i'm still on kind of late =P which is rather bad. but yah pretty happy that i'm done and leaving for hk in about 3 weeks. i've got to write a letter back to my aunt! lol she's so awesome ^^

many things coming up this week and i'm super duper excited =D tons of chill time and stuff keke

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so i'm done 4/5 exams and i think i did REALLY BAD on 3 of the 4 exams i did ... english, chem (terrribleeee), and bio.. and chem are bio are my two grade 12 courses aiya. However i also had a physics exam which i think i did alright on =D and i also went to wonderland and went on behemothhhh which was massively awesome =P went on the first seat!! that was intense ahaha i swear the drop actually IS vertical XD good times good times. but other than that yah.. exams were rather terrible.. but now it's time to just chill and i have math on monday but whatever i'll study a bit for that but i imagine it not to be tooo hard =D so good. i'm at least happy i've got them over with and i'm almost through exam period. haha time to go cheung k <3 ^^ hong kong soon too <3

summatives & exam period! =(

Seriously school sucks. It's ridiculously boring... and next week our exams start so lots of stress at the moment. It's also kinda bad that we still have summatives to do the week before our exams, so it's like there's not much time to study which is really really frustrating to say the least. I guess it's partially my own fault that i have issues concentrating and having self-control but i'm so tired from school and working that i dont' want to do anymore! =( HAIZ must get through this.. almost over!