it's been awhile..

yes it has indeed been awhile since my last post. and that's cause a lot of things have been going on! and i don't really know how to deal with things... i'm still a little confused about stuff but overall things aren't bad =) there's a lot of things that could be better but things are the way they are for a reason. and i don't want to begin doubting that. Work is definitely building up with really sucks... umm i'm going to a friend's prom! that sounds exciting =) looking to borrow a dress from someone.. lol >< surprisingly they're hard to find haha yah things are on my mind... >< i shall go work now!

God, You are amazing!

This past friday, instead of going to Malachi, I went to my friend's fellowship, Didomi at SCAC :) They had a program going on that night called Praise and Prayer and my friend was playing for worship team and he was in the skit so it was pretty cool. Their fellowship re-enacted a "skit" by Lifehouse to their song "Everything" (skit: http://youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA take your time to watch it.. it's good ^^) They also did another skit about a girl and her trials and overcoming them and stuff like that. Then keeping true to the name of their event, we had a time for reflection, prayer and sharing in the sanctuary. And I just began to think about the things both the skits were showing and reflecting and thinking about things in my life, in the present, past and future. and it got really emotional and i cry so easily.. yuuup so i started crying... i thought about the things that i do in my life and i realize that there are so many things that i should be doing that i'm not and there are so many people i'm wronging and just not treating them as i should.. anyways that was really good but what else just took me aback was when Joseph came over and like grabbed my arm and started apologizing for teasing me all the time. and i thought that was just amazing of him to really take that step and then i experienced another wave of emotion, but this time an emotion of gratefulness for all the things God has blessed me with. brian was also really nice haha and he actually asked me if i was okay this time.
so i'm not good with words in any way and i don't come up with those lines that sound really good that summarize everything. but all in all, God is just amazing, loving, caring, giving, just all good things. My life is a little.. interesting right now. bordering "drama"-ish but it's not like God hasn't prepared me for what's to come and He'll never abandon me :) God is faithful!