worldly wisdom

i'm going through a devos book and it was talking about worldly wisdom and in 1 Corinthians 1:18 it says "For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God." (NIV)

We watched a vid in froshcell and at the end you have a guy on the radio sort of debating with a lady about Christianity, which really reminded me of a huge chain at uts about religion, and it is kind of sad to me when i see these things and hear what people think of God and how they perceive Christianity to be so ..negative and as the verse says, foolish.

Later in verse 21 it says "For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not know him" It's just kinda heart breaking because we're blinding ourselves with knowledge but that will never satisfy and as Solomon says in Ecclesiastes it's like "chasing afer the wind"... so like for all the non-believers where i think to myself "wow they are sooo smart"... but now it's like "and then what?"

random thoughts after devos... i wonder if this is also applicable to a studying sense? =\

sunshine

whenever there's a sunny good-temperature day i feeel sooooo happy. it feels like God is smiling at me ^__^ so i walk around with a silly smile on my face hahaha. i loooove it, so HAPPY it's just bursting forth haha. that is all! =D

how DO i live with You

I suddenly thought about this the other day as i was doing something mindless. i began to wonder how i EVER lived without God. i can't even imagine how i could live in the future withot knowing of Him or knowing that He is there. God is just that amazing!! Even in situations where my spiritual life takes some hits, He's STILL there. i can't imagine a life completely without Him! yeah idunno why i thought about that but it just goes to show how important God is =D eeeverybody needs him.. they just don't know it yet ^^ so hopefully i can better witness to everyone.

anyways i'm heading back to loo today. this reading week included lack of reading but i'm glad i got to see the people i did. there are people i guess i wish i could've hung out with and caught up with more. more than just once.. because i feel so.. "cheap" just going to see them once and then being like BYE as if they were not worth my time.. which is not true at all because i want to see that they are okaay and doing well.

felly on friday was very good with josiah =D we were talking about discipleship and how it involves sacrifice of something. and greg made a reaaally good point about how often people see sacrifice as giving something up to get something worse or not as beneficial to yourself.. but in reality we're giving something up and we're gettin more. so we got into an accountability group for something we wil give up and i'm with jo and dorothy ^^ buuut yeah i'm going to give up my sleeping in mornings which is SUCH a difficult thing for me because i'm sooo not a morning person T___T but give up my mornings to wake up early and give time to devos ^^ so i'm reaally excited! i guess this means i gotta fix my sleeping schedule haha.

reading week!

i feel like there's so much stuff that i need to do this week! i feel like so many people i haven't talked to in awhile and i really want to catch up with them!! so im going to make a list and hopefully i can figure out a good schedule and not forget anyonee.

- bday partay
- meet with oppa
- kevwong
- hs buds
- CHURCHIES <3
- watch movie with doris and others!
- FAM and lots of awesome chinese new year activities.
- vday mebbe. i think i like chinese new year more ^^
- karaoke with Kristina!
- get a haircut ahah not really meeting with anyone
- breakers and games! pandemic time hopefully ^^
- and i have to do work ofcourse :S

aah super happy that's it's beak time. i don't know how i'll do all this but hopefully i can ^__^ i think as i thought about the break and people asked me to chill i realized how i've neglected some people i really care about because i've been busy and not on the computer and stuff but i really ant to check up on them and see how they are doing! so hopefully i can meet up with those people especially.

technology noob

i should be more careful with my electronics. a lot of things seemed to get owned. like my ds when the hinge broke off. and now my computer! it's also pretty much the exact same thing- hinge breaking =( good thing it's right before reading week so if i need to fix anything i can do it while we don't have school! but i don't want to buy a completely new laptop since it will cost a lot =(
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anyway this week has been pretty good. despite having essay and midterm on tuesday, i think i handled it pretty well =) tried very hard not to procrastinate after i got the extension. and i did faaair on midterm but i'm doing decent in that course so it's not bad ^^ i had a really good time playing pool with jo, josh, and jasmine too hahah wow j-names! and there was breaking with jenny and doris too ahah. aawesome times ! i heard they are starting blogs so hopefully i will get linked!

this week i think God is really trying to show me something about love. especially talking about friends, reading jenny's blog, and hearing others talking about taking up the challenege and stuff. making me rethink what it means to love. so i'm not going take on the challenge... though ofcourse i will try to love everyday! but i think what i want to do is to encourage. i guess it's nice to know that there's someone there caring for you or thinking of you and hoping you are okay and stuff. i really felt this when i had my midterm on tuesday and after i got out i checked my phone and i saw 3-4 texts wishng me good luck on my midterm! so i want to pass this encouragement on as well :)

CRAM

fearing for the next two days. need to remember to be focused and motivated to be a good student for God! finish essay tonight and study all of tomorrow? gogogogo!

sting

i am reminded that we are all imperfect people. we let others down and get let down as well. and i guess it sucks. but there's joy in knowing that there is a perfect friend in Jesus.

neutralized

today i feel especially dead. perhaps it's been a long day but it feels like nothing is particularly striking me today. i feel lk i've lost extreme emotions today and i'm very..neutralized? maybe it's this essay that is forever reminding me how screwed i am but yet i still don't want to do it. but tomorrow i'm going to try to "kill" the research as my friend said. and by sunday i should pretty much be done writing it hopefully. leaving time to study for the midterm that is on the same day!
after that i should be okay...

but it's in these times that i should especially see the glory of God in eveything. even though this essay might by bogging me down (is that the right phrase?) God's amazing presence and love shall get me through! every day is a blessing

i'm starting what a fellow froshie suggested: 365 days of praise, writing down a praise everyday. there are really a limitless amount of things to be thankful for everyday but i think it'll be rewarding and amazing looking back on all the things that God has provided. and then knowing that's only a tiiiiniest fractiion of eeeverything he gives, i don't know if i can begin to comprehend! BUT PRAISE THE LORD! ye~

anyways it's been fairly decent recently. i am losing the keener inside me a bit but i think it's only because of this essay which i'm reluctant to work on. but i have no complaints i think today is just one of the "not as good days" but that's because my other days tend to be pretty good ^^ anywho i'm here alone at slc meaning to start work so i shall stop the blogging now ahah