waves of mercy, waves of grace...

... is my favourite line from one of the songs we are doing this year at vbc :) and i finally saw ts3 today :D and it was verrrry cute! aand the 2nd week of vbc has been going really well thus far but my mosquito bites are kiilling me! scratching much more and not just cause of eczema :P

anywaysss i guess i feel compelled to blog because i have a lot to think about... and here begins my vague blogging. i always thought i was doing "the right thing" and i really did try hard to do everything i could selflessly and whatever i thought was pleasing in God's eyes... but then i see other people doing it and it doesn't seem bad at all... i'm so confused about what is RIGHT anymore... and like people have talked to me about this before, in a loving way, but sometimes i feel lk i'm holding back a lot yet they are doing it themselves... and someone was like "i don't care what salina says" today... idunno if it was out of frustration from vbc or something.. but i thought that was kind of mean >_< it brings back memories of when people used to think it was okay to treat me like nobody becuase it was just a joke and they always told me to shut up...

today was also an interesting day... i got on the bus at finch station and i didn't know you had to get transfers in the station and that you can't ask for them on the bus... so then i was lk OH NOES and went to ask the bus driver for a transfer and he was kinda mean about it >_< and like "you are supposed to get them in the station unless you walked into the station without paying!" and i explained to him that i didn't know it worked that way but that i DID pay and he was like "well maybe you just walked straight into the station" and i felt so like... sad... T_T it felt like i was being accused of something that i didn't do wrong and i actually use adult tickets even though i could maybe get away with student ... but it was just such a misunderstanding cuase i didn't know so i was just like "okay.. well i didn't know, so it's okay nevermind.." and i felt lk crying T_T yes i'm soft! but in the end when i got off, i think he felt bad that he didn't give me a transfer so he gave me one... i wish there was someway i could tell him that i was very thankful and that i wasn't mad at him or anything for denying me a transfer before incase he thought that... lol