run

i really like to run away from my problems.. i really never like to think about things that make me upset because i wish they would just be okay! or that i had never thought of them at all. and i think that's stupid but i can't really help it >_<

i can't say i really know what God is trying to show me right now but it's always like that isn't it... i will really try to trust Him even though it's kind of tough right now. i guess today was just a bad day for that area in my life =S maybe this will be another one of those "why did you even worry!" kind of things. i wanna just curl up in my bed and talk to God forevar. but i have to wake up for vbc.. hope this doesn't detract from me serving to the best of my ability at vbc... well God's plan is perfectttt so this all happening today must be for something.. i need more faith!