A lot of people see this Easter weekend as just a long weekend and time of school, and while that is nice, it's really come a long way from what these past days actually mean for humanity. And we should be grateful for what Jesus did and know that He has risen!
Also it's so great and encouraging to see people getting baptised.. even if you don't know them... just to see people not afraid to profess their faith to people and to see others also be joyous for them. it makes me so happy haha
but actually that's not really what i wanted to talk about mostly. As some people may already know I'm going on a STM to China this summer for 2 weeks and teaching English to students around my age. To be honest, I wasn't sure at first whether God wanted me there, but I felt He had prepared and shaped me for this next step of my obedience to Him. The biggest obstacle in this case was financial struggle. I know it's something i should leave in God's hands, and to have faith that He will take care of that worry.. but my parents are not Christian, family income has gone down so much..., university next year... when i was explaining to my parents how i wanted to go and that it was actually fairly cheap for the stay/food stuff and my dad explained the family financial situation... I was crying quite a bit. asking myself why had i spent this and bought that and not saved when i could've... and stuff it was just a very bad time. but in the end, i found out church could give subsidies and my parents are allowed me to go. However I kept praying for my parents, praying for my family, and praying for the STM .. for spiritual preparation and for financial aid. i don't think i doubted God but i still had fear.. what if the subsidies weren't enough? what if my parents had to borrow money? etc.
however, today something that really moved me and filled me with happiness, gratefulness, just an amazing feeling that is indescribable, happened. One of my leaders and sisters in Christ gave me what appeared to be a letter for my STM. I usually like to open these things in private, so i packed it away in my bag... I got home and assumed it would be an encouragment letter as she just returned from a STM herself, so i opened it up and in the middle of the packaged letter (it was folded nicely) was a cheque. the feeling i felt at that time... maybe a bit scared but also a "oh snap. God answered my prayers and gave me peace in my fears" kind of feeling. infact i was so scared i didn't want to focus on the money.. so i read the letter first. i was expecting like 20 dollars. but it was a lot more... I was just so taken aback.. by her act of generosity, her concern to my situation, and how she really reflected God's love. Even as I write this... I am in disbelief. It was such a selfless act and so just... no one has ever done this and this will be an amazing way to witness to my parents. I also feel stupid. God has come to my aid so many times. why haven't i learnt to fully trust without worry?! God's existence is proved so powerfully through people like this... AHH i'm still so "感動" for all the chinese readers..
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