deeper :)

every year in university God has been teaching me so so so so sooooo much and really challenging me and i hope that i can only go deeper in my relationship with Him! this was a pretty bad week in terms of work but i tried to just draw my strength from Him and to just rely on Him and know his plan is perfect. and i super looked forward to DG and it was greaaaat =D got to share about my week and hear about doris, diana, and monica's and i'm glad that they are honest and open about their struggles and trials =) that really means a looot to me because i know for myself i'm someone who often .. hides things and the fact that they can be open towards me shows me that i can also be open =) and doing Bible study with my dg was so refreshing and it felt so GOOOD to just read His word especially after such a draining week :) it really felt like i was drawing strength from Him ^^ then afterwards headed over to lester and got to catch up a bit with matt though he had to sleep but i'm glad i could just see how he's doing since we've both been busy and haven't had much time to talk about our struggles.

then friday! went SKATING =D but it was cold =( and then i had my first tutoring session and that was really such a good experience. even though my tutee is a graduate student and i suppose he's quite old haha relative to me but he's a really interesting person. and even though there were some awkward silences when you run out of topics but i hope i can help him improve his english! and get to know him more. he is a physics grad student from china ... so smart T_T anyway played softball, went home, helped out with welcome table at ccf =) and watched 1040! It's a documentary about the Christianity movement in Asia and it was such a moving documentary... especially since i guess i'm pretty interested in Asia-related stuff this was... just so good =D anyways i know a lot of people talked about the korean pastor who died as a hostage but i think the line that really reached me was just the fact that people are "dying for their faith" and it made me question if i am CURRENTLY dying for my faith.... am i giving all of myself to God? am i placing Him above worldly and selfish desires? am i truly dying (not physically) for my faith..... the answer is probably no... but i hope that realizing that answer will continue to draw me closer to Him!! i am super thirsty =D for HIM hehe

anyways i really liked 1040 and i want to get my own copy! and theeen after that we went home as a house and it was nice being home on a friday =D and on saturday i unintentionally walked in on caring ministry meeting but it was really good getting to share and hear others share about people they want to care for =) thank God for your love! and had an enjoyable dinner buffet which was hilarious and filling! anyways i have to learn how to write shorter posts... i think i go into too much detail... hahaha overall good times and must complete the goals i set for dg!