my wall!

what wall? no, not my fb wall. i mean the wall that i think i put up quite successfully sometimes. i think i've really been growing in God this summer and i feel like i've been finding joy in more and more things than i have before and those moments are so great for me! I'm trying very hard to serve in humility and to strengthen the people around me. but sometimes i think that i have these times of just... frustration. i feel displeased with myself.. and this is when i start to get vague =P

well there's always softball and i think i struggle more with this than i let on. i wanna do the best for God and to build up a team that glorifies Him and not OUR TEAM. lets just say we DO somehow WIN the championship what will that bring us but joy that may only last til the end of summer but God is forever and eternal. we should always do things that show that HE is great not us. and i wish i could say to God that i am doing all i can do to help this team but somehow i always feel lk i could do more. and then there's trying to encourage friends in their faith as well as their troubles and you know i wish i could help them and be there for them and ENCOURAGE ENCOURAGE ENCOURAGE but sometimes i just don't know what to say. and sometimes i even question if i'm doing the right thing becuase it just doesn't seem to be GOOD, people seem to be unhappy but i thought i was doing this because it was the best thing to do. and there's def a lot more things i don't tell people but i think about a lot.

but one thing that God has been teaching me this summer that it's not just UP TO ME and what i can do. it's what GOD IS DOING and CAN DO (which is ANYTHING!)through us and IN us/other people. God is just...AMAZING :D and i feel lk sometimes we beat ourselves up over a lot of things that we've done that we regret or turned out not as we wanted but this song i heard at Wildfire really reminded me that sometimes we are so caught up in all these regrets that we have or what we did and we forget WHAT JESUS HAS ALREADY DONE. because of Jesus we can be forgiven of our past sins! this is the song :)

lyrics include:
you are more than the choices that you've made
you are more than the sum of your past mistakes
you are more than the problems you create, you've been remade

cause this is not about what you've done
but what's been done for you
this is not about where you've been
but where your brokenness brings you to

anyways was just doing some thinking =P and wanted to blog bout it. and was very happy to see some ccf people/friends at wildfire and ate DELICIOUS WINGS with them at hollywood at pmall ^^