tortuuure

but not really. just work. like i know i have to do it but everytime i try i feel like i'm dying inside... lol it's like so TEDIOUS. i cannot describe this feeling of working. lk just thinking about it is terrible. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE KEENER IN ME... also i looked at my schedule next term and i think i'm going to be ralllly dreading it. there are soo many night classes =( like 8 50.... i don't think i can fit tourism in anymore T_T but it IS a 3 hour class so gotta reconsider. i think it's a lot of morning classes and lots of late classes so i have a whole lot of nothing in the middle... i'm so sad now >_< i didn't even realize we had already been enrolled in courses... and like all the other choices are the exact same times but different days.. WHYYY. =( boo hai T_T i ratehr have all morning classes instead of having so many things at night. just like knowing you still have classes or that you're eating dinner and know you have to leave.. that will suck T_T

ANYWAY. that's my ranting about school >__> but there's been some good times as well. when i actually work hard i feel good haha. but that doens't happen often. um breaking always makes me happy lol not only am i doing exercise but i feel lk i'm improving and people are helpful. learning chinese is prob what i'm enjoying most. and maybe studio class for planning. ccf is also a nice break from all that school =) must work now T_T