long weekend!!

this is going to be a very pointless post.. but things i hope to do over the weekend!!

TODAY (aka friday)- shopping with irene and wendy? :) winter clothes~ and then fellowship/session with phil and nicholas!! and phil wants korean cause he is quite the korean boy now! i'm quite excited for this. super church friends hang out day ^^ good thing for PA days =D and good thing York is on strike haha

SATURDAY - oscar's partay! which i hope i can go to. and i hope jan can go to... cause it doesn't seem like polly or judith are going... haha but yah itl'll be a nice break for a change! i'm using way too many exclamation marks but i'm just so happy now

SUNDAY - CHURCH ^^ and then dt hangout time with somebody ? suggested santa clause parade hahah but probably chinatown? i want to go and be a tourist again...

MONDAY - CAFE BLANC PRACTICE TIME. i'm so happy i think we sound not bad ^^ hopefully.. we need to record and listen and stuff too bad my karaoke machine is so far from my piano! lol and then GIRLS hangout time hopefully. it's been awhile when it has just been the 5 girls so i think this will be pleasant and very nice =)

AND THEN THINGS I DON"T WANT TO DO OVER THE WEEKEND BUT WILL HAVE TO FIT IT IN AT SOME POINT.. AMIDST ALL THE FUN:

1. Hamlet English Essay .. gotta get it done by tuesday so she can edit it cause i suckkk at english.
2. Physics Lab....... can't let my physics mark drop >__<

and thaaat is my weekend =) i'm excited cause it sounds amazing!

cont'd

well now that i'm done my little blurb on friendship... IDUNNO being back in this kind of situation again has been nice and i think i've started off much better than before... everything is pretty relaxed and casual and i like it that way but i'm starting to feel that expectancy coming up again and i know it's going to be very bad if i can't control it... he treats me really well and he's really considerate and i feel bad for pushing him away and ignoring him sometimes but it's only cause i'm scared to get too emotionally attached or something. i wish i could talk about all my concerns and things i'm worried about but i really can't find myself to bring it up and bring a too serious and naggy tone to the relationship. today i found myself getting very annoyed and i feel bad because i know he was only there because of me... and not for any other reasons but i think once again i have problems trusting him just because of his background and his friends. however i really honestly know it's not his fault and how can i even complain when i'm the one who always avoids him and is keeping my distance when he's the one that is actually making more of the effort. maybe it's cause i'm still unsure of his feelings?

friendship and love... ship

I guess this is going to be a big two in one kind of blog... i went to school early today and did some contemplating about stuff in general and i felt very thankful. Things have been going alright and i'm trying not to let school and little naggy things get me down. I guess this is ironic because i kind of completely let things bug me today as the day progressed but that's besides the point. I must say I'm really thankful for friends that i have, but i realized there have been some people i've been very close with a couple years ago and i'm happy i've realized that i can still trust them and confide in them if necessary... just very open to telling them things and i think that's nice =) however i feel as if the friends now is a constant struggle and up-and-down thing... sometimes it's good sometimes it's not so great... maybe it's just the people they are. i feel like it's waivering a lot and sometimes i get a little let down and then i start to not want to hang out with them as much. which makes me feel i have no realy tight friend to trust and stuff.. but i think i am really lucky because unlike a lot of the group of friends at school i have out of school friends that i have fun with too. Is it better to have lots of friends or a couple of close ones? I think i've been in both of these situations before but i realized it doesn't really matter as long as your relationship with God is good... either way you will have fun with the few tight friends or you will have fun with all your many friends but people aren't perfect and will not always know what you're thinking, know what you need, know what's wrong, and won't always be there. but He will =) there's this song that i really like...
a song about friendship!
一個人的晚餐無聊寂寞
one person's boring lonely meal
兩個朋友能開心的直說
two friends can openly and happily talk
三個人可以給妳勇氣
three people can give you courage
可以安慰妳的失落
can comfort your disappointment
異口同聲的說
words from different mouthes but the same sound
因為有妳染上新的幽默
because of you i receive a new kind of joy
也因為有妳世界變得輕鬆
and because of you, my world becomes relaxed

我們能相遇非常難得
that we would meet is a work of fate
所以盡情大聲唱歌 分享每一分鐘
so openly sind loudly, make use of every minute
我們擁有一個真心的朋友
we have a true friend
就算有風吹不走我們感動
even the wind cannot blow away our feelings
真的希望妳能夠永遠快樂
i really hope you will always have enough happiness
妳懂我
you understand me
不用說
no need to say it
最想看見彼此的笑容
i really want to see you smile

HAPPY PEPERO DAY

this has got to be the most jokes and cute day ever. In Korea on Nov. 11th, they celebrate Pepero day where people give their loves pepero (or Pocky)!! lol IS THAT NOT SO CUTE?! apparently it was created by Lotte ( super big controlling company in Korea) since Pepero is also created by Lotte... but anyways it's jokes... also jokes is how while they're celebrating love... here in Canada we have remembrance day which is totally different...

i've finally found a hobby

well things are starting to get busy... and by busy i don't mean school work but dance practice! anyways this week... mon, tues, wed i have dance afterschool and two dance practices in the morning on wed so i'm going to be really tired. thurs i have nothing! i'm really worried about the eng essay that is due very soon so i guess i should really do my work! instead of slacking off this weekend. however i ate with crystal and it was nice chatting with her about stuff again. and today i went with some NT-ers to nakwon! (they opened one at fmp!!) i'm really looking forward to friday as well because i'm going to have a breakdancing session with phil and nic at NT before fellowship so i'm really excited to learn some stuff! and ACTUALLY session =) my inverts are getting better too! so in general things are going pretty good. i've been smiling more than usual ^^ i really go to improve that relationship with God though and also work on that self-confidence thing..

equilibrium

when a system reaches equilibrium, it is dead and can do no work... or something like that (from bio, yay i still remember a bit) ANYWAYS i have achieved equilibrium! i feel very bad for not working but i have been staying afterschool everyday this week and then after that sometimes i have extra stuff to lay on like mandarin and volunteering... so i get really tired by the time i get home and i just want to lay around and NOT think of english essays. no work can be done! i feel like i could use this random play time to study or start something for work... or even practice breaking.. but I'M SO TIRED. need to sleep earlier... like right now...ALSO art.. oh my goodness i think my idea is going to get owned or it's going to turn out completely crappy... WHAT DO I DO?! uts is in desperate need of a holiday ...

"i like to dance when i'm stressed"

yay so i made hiphop and street ^^ and in the words of jeff: "BALLIN'" haha =D i'm really happy to be able to at least be not too awkward when i dance. it's something i really enjoy doing. i just wish i was more open with it because you need to have good confidence when you dance and hopefully i can gain this! i've also been having a good time doing dances because i've been able to meet people through it. like this guy in m4 always says hi to me in the hallway and it's just nice and friendly hehe. which makes me sad that i'm leaving next year though so maybe had i done this earlier =( but yah! i hope this means that i can actually dance somewhat well? considering i made it but i know some people who made it also didnt' dance thaaat well so maybe i'm one of those people too! but anyways school will be much more fun with dance practices!