Korean was my last exam and I don't know if the title of my blog post is CORRECT BUT I'M HOME :D
it's super nice to be back and sorry for the people who still have exams but you are almooost done! :) i like just sitting in my room even though i don't have plans with people. i haven't gotten to taste home cooking yet though. probably tomorrow! i can't wait to see the people that i haven't seen for so long :) and watching people get baptised today made it an even more joyous occasion. Something did happen today though that kind of hurt me =S but i know that regardless of who it is that hurts us, we must still show love to them. I've realized I guess through seeing it happen with other people and myself that it's easy to develop grudges or to talk badly about the person who hurt us and concentrate on downplaying that person rather than why it wasn't a nice thing to say.. but i think most of the time it's just pride, not wanting to admit your own weaknesses, flaws, and errors.
I think personally for me, I actively think about ways to give. But where I fall short, and i fall very very very SUPER DUPER EXTRA short, is when I feel like it's not done back onto me. "Do as you would like others done onto you" but I always felt like it was never reciprocated. and that's where i super duper failed! it's because i do not know humility, i'm too prideful and think i deserve anything at all... if God thought like me after He sent His SON, then He would just be soooo upset because of our consistent failures to love and draw close to Him, our highs and lows in our faith, our hypocrisy, all our shortcomings... but He's not because he is an awesome awesome God whose love is unconditional :) it would also just be impossible to ever reciprocate His grace... I need to re-focus on Him and let Him be the source of my love. to be more like Christ who came to this earth to be our Saviour and knowing there was no way we could ever reciprocate his good deed for us yet He did it anyway. and i can't do it alone! I'll need His strength to not fall into those traps! :)
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