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i can't believe i'm struggling so hard with the end of summer... idunno i learnt the hard way that sometimes you really just need to move on. but right now i really don't want to =( but inevitably fall will come and i'll head off to university. and i will probably love meeting new people and being all independent but i'm really sad that it won't be the kind of fun that i've had this july and august.

i guess i started thinking about it again because this weekend was just very very fun. i've always loved playing with soldiers and going to socials but this year i just felt a lot closer with the group, probably because just got to talk to people more, the amount of time we spend with each other and not only softball time but also at church/fellowship :) i love being around people that i know care (EVEN WHEN THEY MAKE FUN OF ME >___>) i guess it's kind of funny haha it's just sad because i know some of these people i won't really be talking to much or seeing at all after i head into loo. probably until next summer even... like howard? =( what 22 year old will talk to me about going into space in his gundam and act like he's ...10... hehe and i like that people will drive me home! and are very gracious with rides :) thanks kevinnn lol (not only that you drive me home, also the ride is quite fun ^^) and i like that people buy me food. not because i get free food but because they buy me food without me asking and that makes me feel good haha thanks for treating, guys!

IDUNNO i like that everyone is encouraging even when i clearly suck at softball haha thanks kevin i know you try :P and the grade 9ers are so cute hahah they are so younggg and they kind of make their own little jokes in their little group but i'm glad i was paired with tim wong on that one time we did surveys and he was so shy! haha and daniel when he posts on my wall and he's very happy about softball lol i hope they continue to play in ccsa but eventually actually go to socials and stuff cause that's where we have the most fun ^^

anyway this was our last weekend of regular season games. and we ended off with a record of 5-5 :) and we won both of those games to get there. playoffs? maybe.. but mannn this weekend was ridiculously hot =( and i umped a senior game at 2pm so the sun was killer =( but i really got to see the difference between junior and senior.. and i think i'm really fortunate to be playing in juniors and to be much less competitive and to know we have a leadership that is trying to work on that :) will also came out to our game. i learnt today that he does not go to games randomly haha and that he knew soldiers had a game at bevglen and he came out to watch and help us take pics ^^ gah will is so nice! lol

argh kay anyway i didn't think this would be so long =( i guess i'll just try to make the most of the rest of my summer. and really pray for my friendships to not die.. really want to eat and chill with people before i go off to uni. lol i make it sound like i'm goign somewhere far and never coming back again haha AH i hope i don't get too emotional on the day before i move in >__> haha wow i'm lame =(

ps. TO MO! if you read this :) hahah howard! the wall thing was pretty funny :) girl drivers! yay i trust andrea ^^ and i'll let you know if i ever come to mac, i don't know too many people there but it's sort of close? and jacky is there too except he's always too cool to hang out with us when he comes back on weekends... and i hope we have moooreee socials :) even if our season is ovar!