counting down

this morning i met rahim on the subway and we had a little chat as we walked from spadina station to UTS. we talked about how time had passed so fast and it was already nearly march. everything just flew by i guess while we were enjoying ourselves. and all this grad stuff is coming up too.. i'm taking my grad photo tomorrow (the formal one) and then we are looking and fitting grad rings on friday, university decisions (yay i got ubc acceptance too) every event that has occurred is our last... our last Show, last semi, our last jazz night and our last couple of months that we will be in contact with lots of people at our school, as it is inevitable that many friendships will be lost... i know this is a really negative way to look at it and instead i could be looking forward to the new things in university and new friendships and i shouldn't be regretful of the things i've lost. As much as i didn't regret losing all my memory and stuff from my laptop, simple pictures, music, and homework don't translate into the same thing as simply not caring that i won't be seeing many of the people at school anymore.

i know i've had really mixed notions of UTS in the past. there was a time when i hated it and i could care less if i just left and went somewhere else. UTS used to mean almost nothing to me as a school and friendships weren't the strongest and i felt the better ones i could still retain. However maybe it's something about being in the graduating year and only having 4 more months with the people i've spent 6 years at school with. i know we all have to move on and there are great new things to explore and look at... but i just want to make the best out of the little time i have left.

i wish i could go out more and spend more time with the people i know and maybe not even know (as well) instead of being super worried about school and everything. (although i know entrance scholarships are nice) and i'm probably only saying this because i've already been accepted to a lot of my programs... need to do more cool stuff =(