blessings

i love how God is so good... so things have been pretty interesting this past week. there was retreat first of all and i think God just spoke so simply to me and it was just BEAUTIFUL. i reeecently been going through some suffering and just pain and it felt like such a huge burden and i felt like i was going into retreat kind of ...heavy hearted? but God just spoke through Paul and spoke so directly and clearly and it was just such an 'oh snap' moment. Paul Zung, our speaker, said how Jesus and Paul lived a life full of suffering. They had to endure so much physical pain but also a lot of emotional pain as well: betrayal, unfaithful friends, hatersss, etc. However, they never forgot about their purpose and about the light of the Gospel. While they suffered greatly, they never let their sufferings hinder their serving or held them back from continually being a light unto the world. As the speaker put it, suffering is like a line, but the light is another. They run parallel to each other - pain never deters the going out of the light. Basically I learnt that I was letting my troubled times, my times in the "wilderness", interrupt how well i shone that light. It was a perfectly timed lesson :) God is goooood like that ^^

as well God blessed me with an interview in first round and it's kind of high level and competing with 4th years and I have no idea HOW i even got this because I was so sure I'd get NOTHING for first round because I don't have any good experience >_< so i can definitely only give all the glory to Him and attribute this opportunity to Him. and i had my interview today and it was really scary but also a really really good experience and i am really unsure as to how it went but I just want to trust in Him and to continue to be joyful despite the outcome. though this is indefinitely harder when the rankings and stuff ACTUALLY comes out...

and today rosanne and sophie came over and it was FUN TIMES :) oh and josh too ahaha