HK is a different place, but apparently I am still me

Though HK may be a 15-hour flight from my Toronto home I still cannot escape the hardships that have continued to be a part of my life. I think there's really too much on my mind to really rant about them all, plus they are a complete jumble in my mind right now. I suppose I'm still just consistently looking for someone who will be the perfect friend and comfort for me especially in these tough times when i feel like i don't really have anyone. And then I realize I am a completele idiot for not realizing/remembering the One who is ALWAYS just ALWAYS there. I could apologize forever and it would still not cover all the wrong i've done but good thing God is loving and forgiving. I've been trying hard to get on track and i was doing amazing after TC and even a long time after TC but then suddenly one thing happened after another and by the start of summer i felt like everything had changed and i lost a lot. I guess people will never be exactly who you want them to be (including myself) but I should just be grateful for their existence. As far as I know these people read my blog sometimes...

ELENA - i know i don't know you too well like on the personal level but thank you for just even wanting to know me =) i honestly LOVE that we are on the softball team together this year. ROVERS! ;) you are one of the reasons i love being a part of soldiers =D i really love all you guys!!

OSCIE - yah you are pretty awesome though sometimes i know i can be really moody with you. thanks for staying on late a lot so i can just kind of go on ranting forever when i dont' know how to express myself so i send like a bajillion msgs but i guess it helps that you actually stay up so late =P You and Jo really mean a lot to me and though you may sometimes make the -___-" face which makes me so frustrated lol thank you for trying to stop. i'm glad you also decided to stop killing the convos.... =P

SISI - not sure if you will read this =( but please come back/msg me/send me emails! i really miss you soooo much!!! i want to hear from you!! fiiiiind me <3

I guess what i need to do is fully rely on God first and just give these things up to Him. He can definitely carry these burdens much better than i can... plus i am really weak.. haha and i guess i'm also hoping for closer relationships to people but those take time. so PATIENCE =) anyway 6 more days and i'm coming back to TORONTO. i miss all you guys i reallyyy do.

You are amazing, God!