evolving introvert..

recently i did one of those personality tests and i got .. something which i can't even remember anymore... but i do remember that it said i was an introvert. idunno if i used to be an introvert or not but recently i have been getting more and more tired going out with people after work so i tend to just want to go home... being with people can be tiring! so i'm glad the long weekend is here :)even though this week i will be going out a lot since many people are back from reading week! so many don't know who to talk to!! but so far the people i have gotten to talk with has been good catching up time :) so i guess i'm looking forward to see all these people i haven't seen in so long!! i'll just sleep earlier or something =D

something that i've been asking others to pray for me about is to get to know my coworkers better and God has really really answered my prayers :D it was so good because after i sent an email with that prayer request in it, the next day at work, a door was opened and i talked to two of my coworkers :) now i'm on a pretty good talking basis with three of them and i even went to the jeremy lin basketball game with one of them! so amazing how quickly God responds! but i definitely do have fear with witnessing and sharing the Gospel with them so i hope in the next step is to have courage and to not fear man but God!

i've also been taking buses back and forth to do ridership counts for one of the things i do for co-op =P so i've had the chance to talk to a lot of bus drivers and understanding more what their job is like. Many of them are really nice but others seemed more bitter. the latter had some stories to share about rough customers they have to deal with.. especially people showing fake tickets and stuff. i met one guy who had worked 40 years for ttc and is really glad he now works for GO since the crowd is very different. i know this can be a very biased view but some of the stories of how customers treat bus drivers are really ridiculous :( so i think it's probably not an easy job so please treat your bus drivers with love !! though most people who ever read this probably do haha but yeah show them some respect with just a simple thank you or a smile or something coming into the bus :D

bday!

not very creative with the titles... but! today (technically yesterday) was my birthday :) and i am now 21 years old!! kinda weird to acknowledge or say it since i still remember it wasn't long ago when i thought people who were 21 were so old haha i guess in the past i've been very selfish with birthdays. i guess being someone who's not often in a spotlight (at least i don't think sooo??) i always wanted my birthday to be all about ME. but im glad that ive just come to appreciate that God has blessed me with many years and that to celebrate this day i wanted to be a blessing to others instead. idunno if that happened haha but im glad at least i'm beginning to change :) thank you to many people who did make it an awesome weekend including surprise party (which was more a surprise than not a surprise!), treating me to food!, making beautiful cards!, and just being there to make whatever we were doing at the time very fun.

i remember how i wanted to blog about some other random stuff going on but i forgot what it was....

transit geeks

hmm i guess a lot has happened since my first new year post where my daily blogging died down suddenly.

i started my second co-op term, working at metrolinx this time. At first it was preeeetty slow where all i did was read GO documents like different long-term plans, SCHEDULES, and other random reports about transit and transportation. but my manager has come back from England now (he has a british accent and i accidentally spoke in a british accent twice already haha) so i'm getting more work. everyone is super knowledgeable and excited about transit! and i get to know lots of insider information hehe i really have gained a deeper respect for people who work for transit companies... rather than just complaining about bad service!! people work really hard to make sure necessary services are implemented, it's really not that easy!

other than thaaat i went snowboarding and it was really fun! although i haven't improved in a loooong time but definitely very fun and getting to get to know church friends better. same with vball! saw many people this past sunday from vball - many people came i didn't expect and i thiiink this sport i did get better in and had a good and very funny dinner with new and old friends :)

this year i also want to exercise repentance before revival. i realize sometimes i neglect myself (not the same as selfless), my own relationship, and don't reflect on myself.. i need to do that more and to repent of the sins i find in myself so that i can be a better instrument for His good work! anyways really like this song:

2012!

fiiiirstly, happy new years!! 2011 has been pretty interesting... ups and downs but looking forward to 2012 and anxious about God will do! especially since i will be in toronto the next 4 months :)

what i did in my first 3 hours of 2012? i... won my first game of dominion ever, yay! saw my first wild fox ever, and had a fun time with Josiah fellowship :) and many more hours to come hehe

started...

reading ender's game. felt strange it didn't have pictures! haha readjusting to reading leisurely with just words...

on another matter, went downtown for a sandwich run and it was pretty interesting. chatted a little and learnt some stuff so it was really interesting! and it's almost 2012 but i don't really feel like it's very crazy that it's a new year or like how i felt before when it's exciting that the year is about to change haha maybe time just feels all the sameee like day to day.

some exciting news (probably only for me)! i won my first dota2 game and it was rather exciting and kinda scary!! but i was very positive at the end andddd it felt good to contribute to the team!

my blogs have less and less real content... what happens when you blog often!

that happy moment when...

you're reading manga/watching anime and they make a reference to another anime/manga and you understand it :D makes reading it that much more wonderful!

but i borrowed ender's game from irene i should probably be reading that!

Christmastime.. generic seasonal post title could not think of anythingggg

today someone remarked how i hadn't updated my blog and i admitted i did not blog too often so maybe i shall...

mm not that much has been on my mind recently... just kinda been hanging out or staying at home and stuff. i guess if there's one thing to think about it's that january is approaching really really fast! and i'm kind of nervous for my co-op term cause i'm scared i won't be competent enough in whatever they ask me to do... but we will see!

i've definitely been having a lot of fun i guess being at home and doing not a lot... which is nice after a whole term of school hahah and watching movies! today i watched the cube and it was really stressful cause so much suspense and things that pop up really scare me buuuut i guess in retrospect how they figured it out and the idea of it is interestingggg. i think i had really high expectations of it though which maybe made it worse.

mmm just such mindless rambling! haha i guess i'm glad i'm spending time at homeee :) more time with parents, more time piano playing!, spending less money, and i guess i should go learn more excel things since i'm probably using that a lot next term! kind of exciting and also intimidating.

ooo what was good a couple days ago was baptism on Christmas! always so joyous and happy for all the people that got baptized! very happy and lotsa card writing! i felt very convicted to keep praying for some of the people who got baptized so i hope i don't forget! this also reminds me of what a friend said today and the thing she talked about is really sticking to me because i never realized the truth in what she said cause i never even considered it.. i know i'm being vague.. but yah makes me kind of sad...