quick blog! so im in ottawa and it was been very interesting :) many many things are happening and it can be quite exciting/scary. but since im rly lazy and dont wanna blog alll about it .. if you want to know, you can just ask me after hearing of what's been going on :) so here's the list!
1. joined ocac and acf and met many brothers and sisters
2. just joined girls prayer group so im very excited!!
3. got to share the gospel and my faith with my friends :D:DD:D:D but kind of scary sometimes cause i somewhat get mocked.. (this has been crazy! so many opportunities that came so quickly after i prayed for courage to share/stand up for my faith)
4. my house got broken into at night and i saw the robber! >_< (praise God we're all safe!!!)
5. exploring lots of ottawa :D it's a really pretty city but i miss toronto greatly!
6. very happy that I have friends that also came from loo so i dont feel so lonely ^^
7. practicing a lot of guitar/chinese!
8. probably going to ROCK THE RIVER tomorrow
anyway yeah im too lazy to type it all out here but if you'd like to know, talk to me and i'd love to share :)
and that's my quick update!
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Retreat reflections I
So as some of you may know I am at my church's summer retreat for the long weekend! while it has been fun and a good time of learning about unity (the theme for the retreat) i just wanted to drop a quick blog because i know after i leave retreat i won't be blogging about what has hit me so far because i am lazy.
anyway i feel like i have made two major realizations (apart from what i've learnt from sermons and spending time with people)
A) i HAVE changed. if you have read my blogs from before there have been some rather depressing ones where i often talk about how i never really learn from the lessons that God gives me. IN PARTICULAR i struggle a lot with lonliness and in my times of discouraging solitude i've tended to seek the company of people to fill that void in my life where i am lonely. in the past week prior to this retreat, i had those feelings emerge again. Times when i've felt really alone and unloved. I realized that in both those times when I began to feel those emotions, i instantly turned to prayer and to seek God and reminded myself that i am not alone at all! that God loves me, cares for me and is always with me :) i'm glad that i HAVE learnt not to go to people first but to seek after God im so glad that God can change hearts, can fix brokenness, and nothing is impossible for Him!
B) another thing that hit is "my old life". during worship, we sang a song that had the ilnes "and i don't want to go back to my old life" (or something like that... haha i don't remember the song name.. but that line was actually really difficult to sing because it made me kind of emotional? not hard to sing in the sense that i don't believe those lines. it was emotional because i really thought back to the time that i did not know Christ personally, when I did not know God and when I did not have the Spirit... and it's really scary! as i think about it i feel more and more as if it is like... a non-existance... i cannot believe that i could ever have lived without knowing God is true and not having Christ as a hope to hold onto. it is really unfathomable after knowing the sweet and deep love of God! it's like once you've had a taste of this love you really cannot go back. so even the thought of going back is insanely scary and sad. so even as i struggle now for Christ in my life to be exalted and to be first, i am encouraged to know that at least i do not want to go back to my old life of darkness, that i hate it!
anyways my computer is running out of batteries and i have no charger which is maybe why im talking really "shortly" or myabe i always talk like that. but yeah i kind of wanted to share that or just... at least ... problaim the wonder that Christ has done in me, not for my own glory but so that all (those people that read my blog haha) may see God's goodness and also be encouraged :) sorry for long post. i guess this is kind of contradictory to my previous post hahah :S
A) i HAVE changed. if you have read my blogs from before there have been some rather depressing ones where i often talk about how i never really learn from the lessons that God gives me. IN PARTICULAR i struggle a lot with lonliness and in my times of discouraging solitude i've tended to seek the company of people to fill that void in my life where i am lonely. in the past week prior to this retreat, i had those feelings emerge again. Times when i've felt really alone and unloved. I realized that in both those times when I began to feel those emotions, i instantly turned to prayer and to seek God and reminded myself that i am not alone at all! that God loves me, cares for me and is always with me :) i'm glad that i HAVE learnt not to go to people first but to seek after God im so glad that God can change hearts, can fix brokenness, and nothing is impossible for Him!
B) another thing that hit is "my old life". during worship, we sang a song that had the ilnes "and i don't want to go back to my old life" (or something like that... haha i don't remember the song name.. but that line was actually really difficult to sing because it made me kind of emotional? not hard to sing in the sense that i don't believe those lines. it was emotional because i really thought back to the time that i did not know Christ personally, when I did not know God and when I did not have the Spirit... and it's really scary! as i think about it i feel more and more as if it is like... a non-existance... i cannot believe that i could ever have lived without knowing God is true and not having Christ as a hope to hold onto. it is really unfathomable after knowing the sweet and deep love of God! it's like once you've had a taste of this love you really cannot go back. so even the thought of going back is insanely scary and sad. so even as i struggle now for Christ in my life to be exalted and to be first, i am encouraged to know that at least i do not want to go back to my old life of darkness, that i hate it!
anyways my computer is running out of batteries and i have no charger which is maybe why im talking really "shortly" or myabe i always talk like that. but yeah i kind of wanted to share that or just... at least ... problaim the wonder that Christ has done in me, not for my own glory but so that all (those people that read my blog haha) may see God's goodness and also be encouraged :) sorry for long post. i guess this is kind of contradictory to my previous post hahah :S
Thursday, June 28, 2012
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I find that I am feeling less and less compelled to share with people whether it be about my present or past state... i'm also beginning to realize what so many have said about the impacts of co-op on your social relationships. :S i guess i am not feeling great?
Monday, February 20, 2012
evolving introvert..
recently i did one of those personality tests and i got .. something which i can't even remember anymore... but i do remember that it said i was an introvert. idunno if i used to be an introvert or not but recently i have been getting more and more tired going out with people after work so i tend to just want to go home... being with people can be tiring! so i'm glad the long weekend is here :)even though this week i will be going out a lot since many people are back from reading week! so many don't know who to talk to!! but so far the people i have gotten to talk with has been good catching up time :) so i guess i'm looking forward to see all these people i haven't seen in so long!! i'll just sleep earlier or something =D
something that i've been asking others to pray for me about is to get to know my coworkers better and God has really really answered my prayers :D it was so good because after i sent an email with that prayer request in it, the next day at work, a door was opened and i talked to two of my coworkers :) now i'm on a pretty good talking basis with three of them and i even went to the jeremy lin basketball game with one of them! so amazing how quickly God responds! but i definitely do have fear with witnessing and sharing the Gospel with them so i hope in the next step is to have courage and to not fear man but God!
i've also been taking buses back and forth to do ridership counts for one of the things i do for co-op =P so i've had the chance to talk to a lot of bus drivers and understanding more what their job is like. Many of them are really nice but others seemed more bitter. the latter had some stories to share about rough customers they have to deal with.. especially people showing fake tickets and stuff. i met one guy who had worked 40 years for ttc and is really glad he now works for GO since the crowd is very different. i know this can be a very biased view but some of the stories of how customers treat bus drivers are really ridiculous :( so i think it's probably not an easy job so please treat your bus drivers with love !! though most people who ever read this probably do haha but yeah show them some respect with just a simple thank you or a smile or something coming into the bus :D
something that i've been asking others to pray for me about is to get to know my coworkers better and God has really really answered my prayers :D it was so good because after i sent an email with that prayer request in it, the next day at work, a door was opened and i talked to two of my coworkers :) now i'm on a pretty good talking basis with three of them and i even went to the jeremy lin basketball game with one of them! so amazing how quickly God responds! but i definitely do have fear with witnessing and sharing the Gospel with them so i hope in the next step is to have courage and to not fear man but God!
i've also been taking buses back and forth to do ridership counts for one of the things i do for co-op =P so i've had the chance to talk to a lot of bus drivers and understanding more what their job is like. Many of them are really nice but others seemed more bitter. the latter had some stories to share about rough customers they have to deal with.. especially people showing fake tickets and stuff. i met one guy who had worked 40 years for ttc and is really glad he now works for GO since the crowd is very different. i know this can be a very biased view but some of the stories of how customers treat bus drivers are really ridiculous :( so i think it's probably not an easy job so please treat your bus drivers with love !! though most people who ever read this probably do haha but yeah show them some respect with just a simple thank you or a smile or something coming into the bus :D
Sunday, January 22, 2012
bday!
not very creative with the titles... but! today (technically yesterday) was my birthday :) and i am now 21 years old!! kinda weird to acknowledge or say it since i still remember it wasn't long ago when i thought people who were 21 were so old haha i guess in the past i've been very selfish with birthdays. i guess being someone who's not often in a spotlight (at least i don't think sooo??) i always wanted my birthday to be all about ME. but im glad that ive just come to appreciate that God has blessed me with many years and that to celebrate this day i wanted to be a blessing to others instead. idunno if that happened haha but im glad at least i'm beginning to change :) thank you to many people who did make it an awesome weekend including surprise party (which was more a surprise than not a surprise!), treating me to food!, making beautiful cards!, and just being there to make whatever we were doing at the time very fun.
i remember how i wanted to blog about some other random stuff going on but i forgot what it was....
i remember how i wanted to blog about some other random stuff going on but i forgot what it was....
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
transit geeks
hmm i guess a lot has happened since my first new year post where my daily blogging died down suddenly.
i started my second co-op term, working at metrolinx this time. At first it was preeeetty slow where all i did was read GO documents like different long-term plans, SCHEDULES, and other random reports about transit and transportation. but my manager has come back from England now (he has a british accent and i accidentally spoke in a british accent twice already haha) so i'm getting more work. everyone is super knowledgeable and excited about transit! and i get to know lots of insider information hehe i really have gained a deeper respect for people who work for transit companies... rather than just complaining about bad service!! people work really hard to make sure necessary services are implemented, it's really not that easy!
other than thaaat i went snowboarding and it was really fun! although i haven't improved in a loooong time but definitely very fun and getting to get to know church friends better. same with vball! saw many people this past sunday from vball - many people came i didn't expect and i thiiink this sport i did get better in and had a good and very funny dinner with new and old friends :)
this year i also want to exercise repentance before revival. i realize sometimes i neglect myself (not the same as selfless), my own relationship, and don't reflect on myself.. i need to do that more and to repent of the sins i find in myself so that i can be a better instrument for His good work! anyways really like this song:
i started my second co-op term, working at metrolinx this time. At first it was preeeetty slow where all i did was read GO documents like different long-term plans, SCHEDULES, and other random reports about transit and transportation. but my manager has come back from England now (he has a british accent and i accidentally spoke in a british accent twice already haha) so i'm getting more work. everyone is super knowledgeable and excited about transit! and i get to know lots of insider information hehe i really have gained a deeper respect for people who work for transit companies... rather than just complaining about bad service!! people work really hard to make sure necessary services are implemented, it's really not that easy!
other than thaaat i went snowboarding and it was really fun! although i haven't improved in a loooong time but definitely very fun and getting to get to know church friends better. same with vball! saw many people this past sunday from vball - many people came i didn't expect and i thiiink this sport i did get better in and had a good and very funny dinner with new and old friends :)
this year i also want to exercise repentance before revival. i realize sometimes i neglect myself (not the same as selfless), my own relationship, and don't reflect on myself.. i need to do that more and to repent of the sins i find in myself so that i can be a better instrument for His good work! anyways really like this song:
Sunday, January 1, 2012
2012!
fiiiirstly, happy new years!! 2011 has been pretty interesting... ups and downs but looking forward to 2012 and anxious about God will do! especially since i will be in toronto the next 4 months :)
what i did in my first 3 hours of 2012? i... won my first game of dominion ever, yay! saw my first wild fox ever, and had a fun time with Josiah fellowship :) and many more hours to come hehe
what i did in my first 3 hours of 2012? i... won my first game of dominion ever, yay! saw my first wild fox ever, and had a fun time with Josiah fellowship :) and many more hours to come hehe
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