Christmastime.. generic seasonal post title could not think of anythingggg

today someone remarked how i hadn't updated my blog and i admitted i did not blog too often so maybe i shall...

mm not that much has been on my mind recently... just kinda been hanging out or staying at home and stuff. i guess if there's one thing to think about it's that january is approaching really really fast! and i'm kind of nervous for my co-op term cause i'm scared i won't be competent enough in whatever they ask me to do... but we will see!

i've definitely been having a lot of fun i guess being at home and doing not a lot... which is nice after a whole term of school hahah and watching movies! today i watched the cube and it was really stressful cause so much suspense and things that pop up really scare me buuuut i guess in retrospect how they figured it out and the idea of it is interestingggg. i think i had really high expectations of it though which maybe made it worse.

mmm just such mindless rambling! haha i guess i'm glad i'm spending time at homeee :) more time with parents, more time piano playing!, spending less money, and i guess i should go learn more excel things since i'm probably using that a lot next term! kind of exciting and also intimidating.

ooo what was good a couple days ago was baptism on Christmas! always so joyous and happy for all the people that got baptized! very happy and lotsa card writing! i felt very convicted to keep praying for some of the people who got baptized so i hope i don't forget! this also reminds me of what a friend said today and the thing she talked about is really sticking to me because i never realized the truth in what she said cause i never even considered it.. i know i'm being vague.. but yah makes me kind of sad...

getting older

people recently joked about me being old since i'm born early in the year and there are just so many december birthdays! however i recently came across an interesting quote: Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many.
It definitely made me kind of think that these simple things i overlook and take for granted yet words like "i wish i wasn't so old!!" easily slip out of my mouth but i don't really know what the implications or the meaning of those thoughts are...

You alone are the real joy giver!

I feel like God has opened my eyes to many things this week and has showered me with many blessings this term :)

One thing I think that I have improved in this term is filling my responsibilities to do well with being a student! I'm definitely working harder than previous terms and it feels good to not have to do assignments at 4am in the morning! But I think at some point I got lost in the school part of it and forgot the reason why I want to fulfil my studently responsibilities in the first place and to not focus on getting good grades and doing well relative to my friends (since they are all so smart! :P) but what helps me to remember too is just being blessed with the ability to be in school particularly when I hear stories of children that love to learn and wish they could be in school and would travel miles to be in class! So what a blessing and joy it is to be able to learn!

As well, I was talking to someone about the respect we have for doctors and nurses and how they are able to help so many people and even save lives!! and it constantly makes me wonder why I am not in such an amazing profession that must be wonderfully rewarding and then I remember that God must have a grand plan for those who aren't skilled to be a doctor! It's absolutely beautiful how we are all blessed with different gifts and passions to do different things with one thing in common: to bring glory to God and "save" people (perhaps not physically and also cause we don't actually save them!) by telling them about the One who has saved them :) We had a lady share at our church about the need to be humble in recognizing the skills we don't have as well (and perhaps what we aren't called to) and let other people who are gifted in that area to do that and to help in areas where we are so gifted, which is really nice to consider when we often talk about knowing our gifts - but what about knowing what our gifts are not?

And then another amazing thing this week was the Merge! Though for the most part it was just having really great laughs with people and meeting new people, taking a step back it was really a night of great fellowship! It was amazing to know the different people that willingly came out for the purpose of getting together because of a common love for God! What made this night extra encouraging was at the end when I re-met N.W. who I had not seen in a long time but we had shared prayer requests awhile back and that this person actively seeked me out to again ask how I was, which definitely encouraged me to see how this person loved people and it is clearly a love overflowing from God!

anyways taht's a really long blog i guess for having not blogged in awhile and definitely tons more stuff have happened than recorded but this week has been very encouraging for me and i thank you God for it!

3rd year day 1

YAY starting school again and it's kind of exciting. looking forward to many different things this term. it's been one day so far and i have moved in and cleaned my room and things have been fun. not much work i guess to keep me super busy yet. probably most memorable thing that has happened thus far.... PLAYING WITH NERF GUNS. especially awesome after watching firefly where there's tons of gunfights and pretending to be an agent or ninja hehe definitely makes me feel less sad for breaking my umbrella sword :(

yummy food

I remember when i was younger and we were asked what our favourite food was I would always say icecream. Actually not even when i was younger. even now haha because i panic and can't think fast enough. but today i am eating two of my favourite foods! One of them is chicken wings! I love chicken wings.. in almost all the ways you can prepare them.. bake, pan-fry, deep fry, etc i guess it depends on the sauce but in general any kind of chicken wings i will love! The other thing i'm eating right now is EGGPLANT, i'm pretty sure growing up i did not want to eat eggplant but one day in first year i somehow tried eggplant. i'm not sure if i tasted a friend's dish which had eggplant or if i saw it and i thought it looked good so i got it but i remember i really loved the eggplant from the dc building and always wanted it and would also just buy the eggplant on its own. so yummy!

overcome

yay blog again :) so im sitting on some grass now as i write and the weather is wonderful and so goood and i'm listening to this song by Hillsong United which i first heard at the hillsong concert I went to the past saturday. side note: i sat on something and it really hurt so i got up and not im squatting now but the pain is still there haha :( okay anyways i learnt this song called oh you bring and i really like it :D but that's not the song i want to talk about... haha another song i heard was called "take heart" and they played it in conjunction with one of my favourite verses:

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33

This was just such a beautiful reminder that Christ has overcome this world, He has overcome death, He has OVERCOMEEEE. and if i put my hope in Him and He is one that has overcome this world, what things in this world do I worry about if i lift my burdens up to Him and He has me in His hands that holds all things together. I pray I continue to put my faith into Jesus for He is amaaazing. All honour, glory, and praise to Him.

Anyways.. what's been up recently.. not too much really but ive been able to enjoy some wonderful time with some guuurls, been working, finally played some vball again though i have gotten sooo much worse, and i'm kinda looking forward to school. i miss that atmosphere haha. gosh summer has been so goooood in retrospect despite some rougher patches. i'm really enjoying my moment here outdoors right now haha kinda wish i could just always have moments like these where i don't have to worry about anything haha but i know there is work to be done!!

update !

So long time no blog >< BUT things have been EHHH =\ struggling with a lot of things but i think the beauty is that despite my lack of reliance on God, He's still there and He still hears me and He still loves me and He knows my heart and my struggles and He provides!! A lot of things I was upset at but I feel lk so many things got "resolved" or answered and it was like all at once haha and greatly greatly encouraged yesterday by a SISTER in Christ, which was soooo timely and WONDERFUL. Pray that I can learn to really rely on Him only and to really experience what it means for God to be ENOUGH!

other than that work has been interesting!! dealing with 105 MB excel files, taking pictures of people in the office (FOR WORK PURPOSES)! still gotta clean my room and i'm looking forward to going back to school!