supa dupa weekend/pre-weekend~~

Thursday - hooray our ultimate frisbee team made it to the semifinals this year for the first time =) (after coming out as the underdogs as the 8th team against the 1st team... due to their lack of grade 12s who were on their grad trip XD) we faced off against northern and totally got owned but they ended up winning so that's fine.. lol then we faced off against UFA in our consolation game who we had previously lost to 13-4 in our regular season. In this game however we kept up our d and played awesome offense and ended up with 7-6... for them... losing by one point only =( but still amazing cause of our improvement =) SO GOOD BUT CRAZY TIRING DAY (it gets more tiring~)

Friday - i left school early... =) to get ready for daniel's prom! who i went with as a friend =)and i thought it was really fun! i hope he had fun too =P i got to meet a lot of new people and i got closer to him as a friend too so it was rather awesome! hehe super tired from dancing lol (funny story about that haha)

Saturday - ANIME NORTH for the first time. although probably not worth the $40 i paid to get in and then more to buy merch and stuff... it was still an awesome chill time with friends. i bought this really nice umbrella =) <3 i also got to see some cool cosplayers lol GUNDAM and saw some awesome break dancing! woot woot ^^ it was hawt haha and then i even got to go eat korean afterwards! BIBIMBAP keke so that was rather awesome.. got lots of buttons ^^

Sunday - had a partay for sunday school... i can't believe amy is leaving =( she's so funny! i will miss her lots! and i couldn't go to Preston's party =( cause i was out having fun all weekend and so i had to work >__< and now i'm super tiredd cause i have been sleeping way too late so NOW TIME TO WORK :D

what's been up

well it's the month of may again and summatives and other final test/assigments are totally killing me. Just the past week I've slept at lk 1:30 - 2 am for three consecutive days... meaning 5 hours of sleep each night? =( and good thing i didn't have mando on saturday morning so i could sleep in.. and then this is my own fault aha but i procrastinated and left my spanish til today (monday) and good thing i'm done that and all i have to do is memorize but i find it very hard to look at the word document where it's open... HAIZ anyways i'm going to a friend's prom this friday! so i think that will be pretty fun =) although it's also really annoying me cause i dont' know what to do with my hair!!! >__< okay must go concentrate now haha

it's been awhile..

yes it has indeed been awhile since my last post. and that's cause a lot of things have been going on! and i don't really know how to deal with things... i'm still a little confused about stuff but overall things aren't bad =) there's a lot of things that could be better but things are the way they are for a reason. and i don't want to begin doubting that. Work is definitely building up with really sucks... umm i'm going to a friend's prom! that sounds exciting =) looking to borrow a dress from someone.. lol >< surprisingly they're hard to find haha yah things are on my mind... >< i shall go work now!

God, You are amazing!

This past friday, instead of going to Malachi, I went to my friend's fellowship, Didomi at SCAC :) They had a program going on that night called Praise and Prayer and my friend was playing for worship team and he was in the skit so it was pretty cool. Their fellowship re-enacted a "skit" by Lifehouse to their song "Everything" (skit: http://youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA take your time to watch it.. it's good ^^) They also did another skit about a girl and her trials and overcoming them and stuff like that. Then keeping true to the name of their event, we had a time for reflection, prayer and sharing in the sanctuary. And I just began to think about the things both the skits were showing and reflecting and thinking about things in my life, in the present, past and future. and it got really emotional and i cry so easily.. yuuup so i started crying... i thought about the things that i do in my life and i realize that there are so many things that i should be doing that i'm not and there are so many people i'm wronging and just not treating them as i should.. anyways that was really good but what else just took me aback was when Joseph came over and like grabbed my arm and started apologizing for teasing me all the time. and i thought that was just amazing of him to really take that step and then i experienced another wave of emotion, but this time an emotion of gratefulness for all the things God has blessed me with. brian was also really nice haha and he actually asked me if i was okay this time.
so i'm not good with words in any way and i don't come up with those lines that sound really good that summarize everything. but all in all, God is just amazing, loving, caring, giving, just all good things. My life is a little.. interesting right now. bordering "drama"-ish but it's not like God hasn't prepared me for what's to come and He'll never abandon me :) God is faithful!

sensitivity

i forgot how much of a sensitive person i am... and how i really wish i wasn't...

这的世界有没有真爱？/ Is there real love on earth?

I am blogging this after my first day of teens conference and what a rollercoaster it has been. some people are sleeping over and from what i know they are more or less sleeping. For the most part tc was great, i had an amazing group, full of great people and amazing energy. so praise God for real. The most interesting part happened at the end of the night... they always have a message at the end and although i was so tired i admit i fell asleep... the pastor invited some people who wanted to rededicate or were new to christianity to come up to the stage and we could all just pray together. and i saw terry, my little buddy terry, go up so i wanted to support him as well... but little did i know i was full of emotion as well. i found myself up there with a bunch of other people just crying so full of emotion, with grace flowing through us all. God is amazing. He is so amazing that it is indescribable... and i just pray so hard this is not another spiritual high. I never realized that i had so much pain inside. I forgot who said it but behind all the smiles of every person there is probably so much pain. but if anything i got from the message is that pain is the best alert to the body or to the mind that something is wrong.. and my goodness where do i even begin. however taht is not for now. more importantly was what happened during/after

so i'm at tc with my school friends. and two of my bestest friends were there as well. today was a very disappointing day :( i can't believe neither of them came up to me and asked if i wanted them to pray for me and stuff... and if that's asking for too much. i figure me just spilling out tears is enough for either one of them to come over and see if i'm okay. they are 2/3 friends sleeping over right now but even after returning home... they have not spoken a word to me and now i'm just really upset and mad. i am so so disappointed >__< if even the two people i considered like my best friends could not even come up to me and ask if i wanted to talk about it.. should i really still consider them as close as i had thought. Another sad thing is they just continued to make jokes at me... which i must say really did not help at all... Thankfully someone else from my school came to pray with me and i really thank God for him and that guy really saved me there. i was so scared that i was alone on this world. but thank goodness for God and His love that really calls others to reach out to someone like me who he doesn't really know but cared enough to come talk to me.

anyways although a little... sad and upset. i just want to praise God. Thank God for everything. i'm so thankful that no matter what... no matter how much the people of this world forget me, no matter how lost i am, no matter where i am or who i am with, He is always always forever and ever there, loving me until the end. and there are no words that can express that. His love is just so perfect, so flawless and so real, that compared to the people of this earth, ... well human love will just never compare. Father God, give me courage to face the trials of this world... Thank you God.

motivation proclamation~

MOTIVATION. i finally have it! except it's motivation not so much for school work but to dance haha. a bunch of kids at school, I included, have really gotten into hiphop/breakdancing. and i guess that sounds kind of stupid coming from me but i think it's so cool ^^ all i want to do are handstands and glides.. it's all i want to practice at home! watching youtube videos and practicing on gym mats at school haha it's so fun. It probably started when we watched America's Best Dance Crew ahaha jabbawokkies and kaba modern! i'm getting there! i can do a kickup on my bed and almost getting the handstand :) practice, practice, practice!

hehe i also went to my first raptors game! it was pretty darn good :) the raptors... did not win. but it DID go into OT and i dooo get free pizza :) it's also amazing because it's march break! so hopefully i'll have a good time :) on thursday i stayed up til 3:45 studying for bio on friday... the day right before march break and i think i'm still feeling the lag effects because i woke up at like 2:45 pm today haha but hopefully these fun times means an amazing march break!